Erika Kirk talks CS Lewis, grief, unshakeable faith 

Despite losing her 31-year-old husband Charlie in a political assassination in September, Erika Kirk said she doesn’t wrestle with anger against God.

“Never have I questioned, ‘Why, Lord, are you putting me through this? Why are you testing me?’” she said in an interview on Jesse Watters Primetime that aired on Wednesday. “Cause God is so good. He’s so sovereign. And I know he uses everything, everything, even what the enemy meant for evil.”

Kirk also shared that she recently “tried to read” A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis, who wrote the brief reflection after the death of his wife in 1960.

“He lost the love of his life. He was only married to her for four years,” Kirk said. “It was a very hard book to read, not because it was about grief, but because in the opening pages, he talked about how angry he was with God. 

“And I’ve never felt that. … I’m not angry with God. Never have been.” 

She added that Charlie and her family never lived in fear, but instead always focuses on the mission the Lord has for them. 

“I have no regrets,” she said. “I think that that’s why processing this for me is probably different than most.” 

She said many people ask her how she manages such grief amid the intense publicity of Turning Point USA, the conservative organization Charlie founded and she now runs. 

“It’s because I loved – and still love – Charlie,” she said.