‘I wish they would have stopped me.’ Tik Tok influencer Nikita Teran explains the struggle of detransitioning, how doctors failed her

Social media influencer Nikita Teran is embracing her biological gender after spending five years living as a transgender man. But detransitioning hasn’t been an easy process.

“Nobody transitions with doubts in their mind. I was 100% sure that I was going to live as male for the rest of my life,” she told Fox News.

Teran, now 24, recalled the teenage mental health and family struggles that morphed into gender dysphoria.

“When I came to the trans unit, I was very open with my father and my family and I think I was crying every meeting I had with them when talking about my father. But still, they didn’t see any red flags for that,” she said. 

 “I wish they would have stopped me. I wish they would have seen the red flags and realized that this might be gender dysphoria caused by trauma or things like that.” 

Instead of addressing the underlying mental health problems, doctors put Teran on testosterone at age 18 and performed a double mastectomy on her when she was 19.  

But the surgery went wrong.  

“I was feeling very sick, and they noticed that there was something wrong with me,” Teran said. “It was like bleeding inside. [My chest] was very, very large with blood. So that same night I had to be rushed into the emergency room for another surgery.” 

“Everybody knows that once you get surgery, there’s risks of complications,” she added, “but I guess you never think that it’s going to happen to yourself.” 

Teran believes the internet skews people’s perception of what it’s like to have your breasts removed.  

“Double mastectomies are very glorified,” she explained. “What you see online about double mastectomies is often very glorified. But things can go wrong, things can get difficult, you can get complications.  

“It’s not always a happy story.” 

Teran has been detransitioning for a year and a half, but has only recently told her family.  

In one TikTok video, she explains that her mother, who is a psychiatrist, was initially skeptical about Teran’s transition into a male but eventually supported it.  

“She trusted the [doctors] that specialized in trans care,” Teran said. “She has since then defended the trans care to her colleagues. 

“I feel shameful of having to put my mom thru this embarrassment in regards to her profession.” 

Teran also posted other videos of herself telling her sisters about her detransition. Her sisters were supportive. 

After a years-long journey to embrace her biological gender, Teran knows how serious gender dysphoria and how persuasive trans activists can be. But she also knows that many transgender youth live to regret their decisions.  

“We [detransitioners] were once just as sure about transitioning as they are,” she concluded.